yes it has been a few weeks. I'm still coughing and still not feeling the greatest. I've been keeping a low profile everywhere and my head has been so screwed up.... excuses I know but I also dont care.
What to write about now I am here, I'm really not sure..... I cant or rather wont write publically about the things I've been thinking about..... the reason my head is so screwed up. Its too personal to share.
I would like to say on a completly unrelated track that Life sucks sometimes. Why is that the good people get the crappy things and the ones who make others peoples lives crap dont fair so badly?
I know its sounds like such a horrible thing to say but I think having cancer or something that can be treated and cured with treatment is far better than having a genetic thing that has no cure or a non self imposed condition that gets worse with time and can not be reversed.
Here I have been all screwed up in the head and in reality my crap is minor in comparison. It all non consequential compared to the battles that others face.
I'm trying to see some positives; but at this point - I just cant. I need too. I need to focus on the positives in life far more and lately I haven't been. I've been wasting my time on the negatives and they have overwhelmed me... comsumed me even. How do I change my nature. How do I turn a negative outlook on life into a positive one?
Life is way too short. Its time for me to change so I make the most of it.
