Togetherness

Look what my beautiful daughter and I did over the weekend.  Took all weekend but it was a great way to spend time together.

Life goes quickly by

Not sure where time has gone.  Not overly exciting in any way. 

Only thing to report is Sam's good life lesson....After two years of having small but medium risk injuries she missed out on being selected for the representative netball squad earlier this year but was good enough to be offered a reserve placement.  They havent done that previously and of course Sam jumped at the chance.

She went to every training and fitness session,  turned up at the carnivals and was rewarded by being asked to join the squad permanently.
So proud of her!

Where have I been and why

Well...  so much for Blogging more often. Thought about adding something a couple of times but to be honest...I couldn't ge bothered.  No one reads this and I kinda feel that makes it a waste of time.  Besides nothing exciting ever really happens that's worth Blogging about.

Had alot on but nothing much to write about

The title says it all! 

Learning not to stress. 

Learning when to shut up and not to say the things that come into my head.

Learning how to relax.

All these things take time and make me busy....but have made the time to exercise a little. ...mostly when netball training is on.

Wanting more fun

I like being at nanny's. Its relaxing....but almost to point of being boring...not that I mind that in any way, shape or form.

Today was good though. Went op shopping...across a number of small towns of course cause its not like nanny's local town is a city...

It was good. Followed by a spot of fishing..or rather sitting on the bank with a line in the water. All in all a good day but I think I'd enjoy the time down here more if I wasn't so tired.

I enjoy spending time with my sister in law. She's one of those really happy people. Always laughing and having fun. Wish I was more like her. I'm trying but its not my natural personality. I'm working on it.

Wish my kids let me have more fun with them too. What aunty bernie gets away with in the name of fun  compared to me just confuses me. Last night I toppled Sam off the end of the bed as a random act. It was funny. Everyone laughed....cept Sam...if aunty bernie had toppled her, Sam would have seen the funny side too but nope...it was mum and therefore not funny. Rather it was another reason to be cranky...

All I want is for my teenagers to still have fun with me...and to generally just be happier rather than be the worrywarts I've helped to make them with my natural non fun personality!

Still at home sick

Was due to go back to work today but I knew yesterday it wasn't going happen...I was sick yesterday.... Still sick... but it was probably the first day that id fully stopped to "be" sick.  I couldn't stop and be sick when others needed me...

What with Sam also being sick, Drew needing to go to his Drs appt, and then the funeral for Brigid and a day to take her and Mary out somewhere. Be that good friend she has always been for me.

So little wonder that I'm still sick. Do feel better today; but still swollowing a prickly pear every 30 second or so . Back to drs I go as its either not clearing or I'm allergic to the antibiotics and that's what's causing the inflammation.

At Dr's....

Well I think I may just officially be the worse employee.

I'm always not there for one reason or the other. Mostly of course hubby and all his health issues, but every now and then a sprinkling of me being sick. I went in today, knowing full well I shouldn't be there and with the intention of putting a face in. Anyone could tell I shouldn't be there but the thing is that when you've had as much time off as I have you tend to want to prove that its legit.

Probably would have helped if I'd gone in Friday but with the running to and from  Dr's for hubby last Friday I figured it'd be easier for me. After all I have to stop being everything to everyone and start taking care of myself.

It also didnt help having to ask for this Friday off to attend a friend's family funeral. I have to be there to support my very best friend. How could I not. Such a shock that her brother passed and I'd like her to know that I'm there for her especially given she always is for me.

Next Friday off was a bad thing for work. We've got this big project where Friday was a big day. All hands on deck. Except now its me letting the team down again. Once again. Always me letting them down.

But its me letting work mates down or me letting my family and most loved down. If you were me I'm sure you choose as I have. To choose those who will be there in return when I need them.

Funny...a few months ago I may have felt guilt.... But not now...
I must have grown emotionally recently!!